I worry everyday that Hubbie is going to walk in the door early and say that the New Company realized they did not need him after all, and he has lost his job.
Everytime the phone rings, and it is Hubbie’s number on the Caller ID, my heart skips a beat that he is calling to tell me they were “closing the office”.
If I hear the garage door open and Hubbie’s car pull in, before I expected him home, I gasp that he might be home to stay, permanently, unemployed again.
Is it possible to have a little PTSD from unemployment??
I always thought PTSD was only for those who have been in war, or who survived an assault, or who have experienced a horrible event in childhood.
Now, don’t get me wrong. I am not in any way making light of anybody who does have PTSD, and I have never been diagnosed with PTSD. I am just surprised that I have a physiological response to the possibility for the repeating of a perceived traumatic event. (Do you hear my Psychology undergrad in that? I knew that degree might come in handy one day! ) Were these past 4 years so traumatic, that I fear the possibility that it may happen again, and that fear manifests itself in these quick thoughts that cross my mind and physical responses whenever Hubbie calls or comes home early?
Were these 4 years Traumatic?
My little dictionary widget on the computer defines trauma as “a deeply distressing or disturbing experience: Emotional shock following a stressful event or injury, which may be associated with physical shock and sometimes leads to long-term neurosis.”
Great. Not only may I have survived a trauma, but now I am neurotic too. great.